“Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it’s cracked up to be. That’s why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more.”
— erica jong



“Love is being stupid together.”
— Paul Valery

(my answer will just be a lie)

I'm a really jealous person. It gets me angry to see you
with girls who're all over you. You may not notice it..
Or maybe I'm just crazy over you,
making myself see things that aren't there.

"Be loved but never love. Attach but never combine.
Trip but never fall. To be broken is better than to be shattered.
Tell him of your strength but never your past.
Be trustworthy but never trust. Be cracked but never open."

PHOTOGRAPHER ANDREW KUYKENDALL

Photographer Andrew Kuykendall.

Andrew´s work has been published in the numerous magazines

around the globe including: Oyster, Qvest, BMM, I love fake, Soko,

Vanity Teen, Zoot, Celeste, Mirage, D magazine, Style mag,

Magnificent, H magazine, Unwind, Regia magazine, Prim,......

ALEXEY,CHRIS AND SVETLANA FOR HOOLIGAN MAGAZINE

Photographer - Alexey Sorokin @ Larapixie

Stylist - Chris Benns @ Larapixie

Hair & Make-up Stylist - Svetlana Sorokina @ Mosmake/Larapixie

Models - Debbie Bailly, Linda Thorson, Valerie Pain, Sonia Power,

Michele First @ Close ModelsStylist Assistant - Amy Hancock

Editorial for Hooligan magazine, December'09 - January'10 issue

Sometimes I just hate life. A lot. I just want to disappear sometimes, forever. Fuck life.

i hate the way you are. you're so controlling. i am not allowed to do anything. you treat me as if i were a dog. you dont understand, you think this is normal. sometimes i think that i'm the weird one for thinking that this is wrong, but im not! i want to have a normal relationship. we're going on a year and sometimes, you're amazing. then it goes back to the same old shit. and the funny thing is, that no matter how much you disgust me with your way of being. there is no way i will ever leave you.
i love you.

I just miss those eyes.

you finally want me again when i finally found someone i can see myself with. ironic, isn't it?

You were the real reason to why I didn't want to go home for the summer.

you say you wont leave me, but i know you would.
you say you count on me to make you smile but your happy with her.
you say ou love me, but you dont show it.
but i love you, and i want you to be happy.

i try so hard to not think of you, but everynight i do and cry.

I love you. I have always loved you and I always will love you.
No matter how many times you break my heart, no matter
how many times I see you hit on other girls and no matter
how many times you blatantly ignore me, I will never fall out of love with you.
And that makes me hate you.

I tell everyone I know that I hate you more than I've ever hated anyone,
but they truth is that if you ever decided that you loved me again
I would drop everything and be with you.
I love you and I still get butterflies whenever I hear your name.

I love kissing you with my eyes half open, because I love seeing you're face.

I wish you still called me every night before I went to sleep.
I wish you still called me, period.
I hate this summer break for pulling us apart
(emotionally and geographically), but before we call it quits, just want to hear your voice one more time...
just before I close my eyes.

Finding out about ALL the lies you told me makes
me want to never see you again. I honestly wouldn't miss
you as a friend since you've been a rather shitty one.
You're slowly burning all your bridges, bitch!

I love you so much. So much. So much. I cried the last time we talked.
I can't help it.. I miss you so much..
SO MUCH. I'll be waiting for you.

I know that we will never be together, even though I would love to spend the rest of my life with you.
I'm so sorry baby.

Break me completely.

the only reason i hate so many girls,
is i know they all have feelings for you.

I pray for you every single day, even though I know you want nothing to do with me. I just wish you considered how much I care for you... I really love you.

i don't know why i'm still holding on.
you don't seem to care anyway. you're awful.
i love you.

The Party Animal

Elle Hungary December 2009

Collaboration | CSC x Diana Luganski

Finland-based photographer Diana Luganski is the latest artist to collaborate with Russian creative label CSC (Chickenshit Conspiracy). The collaboration sees to the perfect marriage of Luganski’s moody black and white images with CSC’s penchant for dark dramatic shapes. Click here for stockists.

“The laws of gravity cannot be held responsible
for people falling in love.

cause when you showed me myself, you know, i became someone else.

i'm having a bad day.
- my heart.

i remember what you wore on the first day you came
into my life, and i thought hey you know this could be
something. 'cause everything you do and words you say
you know that it all takes me breath away. and now i'm left with nothing.